Devastation ..... "to make desolate, destroy, ravage, waste" ..... thanks to the dictionary again ..... this is what occured to my last thread bare emotion within the last week. On the first Saturday of this month (April 5th 2014) my mom lost her home to a fire ..... then the following Thursday April 10th turned into a nightmare of sorts by the end of the evening also.
About a year ago I took in a woman I have known for about 10 years, pick her up from jail and brought her into my home. Then approxiamately 3 weeks later I took in 3 of her kids and her boyfriend .... the father of the two youngest. They have lived here in my home until two days ago .......
The pain of this story is again like when I heard about my mothers place when it burned .... I am feeling helpless and emotionally ravaged by the incident that took place Saturday night. Ms. D wanted to borrow my phone, her's didn't have any talk time left. I knew she had been texting her daughter, so I assumed she was calling her ...... WRONG ..... she called the father of her two youngest kids. ........ He has been having an affair that she was aware of & has been tolerating for a year now ...... Back in February 2014, I had, had enough .... I wasn't tolerating him "sleeping" (actually they weren't sleeping and he would stay up all night with her ) then coming home and crawl into bed with Ms. D, only to get woke up within a hour or two and treat his kids and Ms. D horribly ..... In February I gave Mr SL an ultimatum ..... Ms D or the other woman, he wasn't carrying on with both and live in my home. It was affecting all of us in bad ways! ..... His sleep depravation and mood swings were taking it's toll on him and us! For a week before his March 1st dead line I had given him time to make a "choice by" and a week afterwards he did great & everyone thought he was doing OK ...... he told us he had decided to pick the babies mama ..... wrong!! he went right back to the other woman ..... I finally told him he had to be out by April 8th! He moved out with our help ..... Ms. D was having "withdrawal symptoms" from him but seemed to be coping with his decision. ...... Then April 10th .... Thursday night happened! She made the phone call to Mr.SL and the barrage of filth and foulness emitted from her mouth ...... when she was done I said to her she needed to let him go and get on with her life. (these type of phone calls had been a norm between them for a long time ...... ) I told her I knew what she was going through because I went through it too and she needed to take the higher road for her kids .... and God would bless her ..... that's when the filth and foulness continued to come out of her mouth! Her voice turned to a growl and she said "I don't believe in your "f-n" God" .... this type of talk continued despite me telling her to stop and do not disrespect my beliefs in my own home. If she didn't believe it was her choice but she was not to disrespect my beliefs!! ...... she continued ..... her 13 yr old daughter came out and wanted to know what was going on ..... when her mother said it was because she "didn't believe ....... " Missy L said "well I don't either" ...... then I told Ms. D she could find other accomodations and had to move by May 1st. ...... She began saying it was Ok she had a boyfriend ..... then Missy L ask her mom where she was going ..... Ms. D said back to your father ..... then Missy L became frightened and ask about the babies (they are 4 & 5 years old) she said back to foster care and I don't care ...... (The babies spent 1 year in foster care and had been returned in March of last year ..... )
Needless to say I am devastated emotionally that she would have so much hatred & that her kids mean so little that she would be willing to condemn them to this fate again. The father is possibly into drugs again and out there ...... (one of the factors why I ask him to leave!)
They moved out Monday night April 14th 2014 and I haven't seen the kids since. ........ I suspect within a short time they will be removed from their mother. I have become physically ill from all this and pray for recovery emotionally, & physically. It has been one of the most tramatic decisions I have had to make in my lifetime.
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